I love her, and no one has to convince me that I didn't. It was heartfelt. People have said that with time, that love will fade away, but it doesn't. It doesn't really go away. I talked to her today, and it was so hard for me to resist being nice to her because it was all natural. Listening to her voice just numbs me. Today, she called, and I burst with happiness. I was hoping to talk a lot, but you were busy. I waited for a long time, thinking maybe you would call, but you didn't, and it's fine. With time, my hopes will slowly vanish. But thoughts like you were busy with someone else or maybe you just found it important not to talk to me, they all hurt a lot. But what hurts more is my inability to unlove. People around me say a lot of things, and my mind comes up with a lot of thoughts, but even after all of this, I can't stop loving you. In the beginning, I was too motivated to unlove and move on, but with time, I'm just thinking that I am losing. With days passing by, my love for you just becomes stronger and stronger. I don't know when I will move on, but I don't know if the pain is easing or if I'm just getting used to it. I have been resisting not to contact, but every time I fail. Every moment I live, I just want to share it all with you. I don't want you to miss anything that is good, anything that can make you happy. I just know one thing: if you had stayed, I would have done everything for your happiness. I'm not that rich, I'm not even that beautiful, but I know one thing: I have done everything in my control for your happiness, and I have continued to do the same. You will earn more, and you will find better partners than me, but the thought of you doing the same thing that every girl does tears my heart because I knew you were different. I don't want to accept the thought of you seeking improvement, but mostly everything that has happened gives me signs that you left me because you were focused on your betterment.
